one week one week one week

so today is wednesday 28th april. if you add 7 days onto that it will be wednesday 5th may and that's the day kenny gets here. i haven't spoken to him in like 3 days so i'm worried he's gonna stand me up haha. i'm sure he won't. this time next week i will be with him.. i hope. one week one week one week!

i wish i was in birmingham..

sat at home with a towel on my head watching the european gymnastics mens finals.. my friend dan has just won the gold medal for pommel.. bless him! he could of got me tickets so i could of been up there. i wish i was in birmingham rather than here.. would of been so cool watching all those gymnasts, they're all so good. i wish i was good at something.. like i'd love to be a gymnast it looks so fun but i am like the least flexible person ever.. i've got my singing and dancing but i'm not exactly amazing at that haaa! anyway got quite a busy couple of weeks coming up, obviously college all this week and jordan's 18th on tuesday night, rehearsals on thursday, work on friday, going to gillingham on saturday, possibly cricket on sunday, hair on monday, nails on tuesday and then kenny on wednesday! so i am being a very busy girl! hopefully it will make me forget about eating because i'm trying to lose a bit of weight for summer so less food put together with the fact rehearsals are back and so is work so i am dancing two nights a week for 3 hours a night will mean i have a relativley nice stomach for summer and i can whack the bikinis out.. i fake tanned for like the first time ever - i've had it done professionally before but this was the first time i have done it myself - on friday night and it's gone a pretty nice colour, might do my legs again later as i am wearing a very short skirt to jordan's on tuesday so need nice brown legs.. also i get to wear my lush new shoes! can't wait!

the future is so scary..

do you know when it's really late at night and you can't sleep and you just think about everything. like what's going on in your life now and the future. i did that the other night and i scared myself. everything now seem's fine, you know.. my family support me, i have a good job, good friends, kenny.. but the future is so scary. exam's soon are making me think about university and i keep thinking what if i don't get in.. what will i do? or what happens if i get in but don't like it? what if i can't get a job? and even if i do like university and i can get a job.. i'm rubbish with money, so what if i get into debt.. or what if i never get married? WOW the future is scary stuff. but then i think.. everyone else seem's to manage it so i should be okay? yeah so anyway i'm trying to focus more on the present right now and i'm only thinking about 2 weeks into the future. yey two weeks. in two weeks time, i will hopefully be snuggling up on the sofa or in bed with a gorgeous northern irish man and looking forward to spending the next 4 days with him. no college, just kenny. and work.. unfortunatley i couldn't get out of that.. but he's planning on taking my dad down the pub. could be interesting. i can't wait for two weeks time and i'm counting down the days. it sounds sad i know but it's the only thing i'm really looking forward to in the future at the moment..

can't wait for tomorrow to be over..

i finished all my college work in two hours.. oh yeah i did! really quite proud of myself. still got that 'back to college tomorrow' feeling though. really dreading the 6am wake-up.. college itself should be okay, but then i have a driving lesson and then the dentist. urgh, can't wait for tomorrow to be over!

seventeen days and counting..

don't you hate it when you're so excited about something and you can just tell the time leading up to it is so slow.. kenny booked his train tickets and is coming down on 5th may at like 7pm.. seventeen days and counting.. i can't wait to see him.. but have to go through twelve days of college, three driving lesson, two weeks of work, one week of rehersals.. etc etc etc.. seventeen days though!!! hmm back to college tomorrow as well.. kind of looking forward to it because it makes time go faster.. but not looking forward to the work and early mornings and revision as my exams are exactly a month away tomorrow.. want to see everyone again though! missed my college girls and boys so much!

he's french.. he's a fucking genius

last night with katie was such a comedic night.. we watched michael mcintyre and omg he was actually hillarious.. there was this one thing about his little boy and they thought he wasn't going to be able to speak and i don't even remember what the joke was but it ended up with him asking his little boy if he could say crousaint - or however you spell it - and michael mcintyre like 'imagine if he just went crousaints je suis lucas merci' and all this french stuff and he was like 'i'd shout to my wife.. he's fucking french, he's french.. he's a fucking genius'.. it doesn't even sound that funny now, but omg we were in stiches for about 10 minutes literally. went to watch saints today, we beat leyton orient 2-1.. but omg we made it hard for ourselves. adam lallana or adam lalanmamambanana as kenny calls his scored a beautiful goal though, not gonna lie. anyway, driving lesson tomorrow, first in three weeks.. uhoh..

yeah okay i'm 17 but i do love the annual easter egg hunt

happy easter everyone! i love easter because i get money aha.. i don't do the whole chocolate eggs thing apart from the easter egg hunt. yeah okay i'm 17 but i do love the annual easter egg hunt with my brother and cousins. katie was round this year too so we had five of us doing the hunt and guess what!? i won. took me 17 years but i did it.. so proud of myself. will came second, tim third and beth fourth leaving katie in last place haha! she never even found all her eggs.. katie only found three eggs out of four.. so somewhere in my grandpa's garden theres a plastic egg filled with chocolate waiting to be found.. grandpa forgot to do a map again you see, so we have no idea where the egg is.. home now and we've just watched michael mcintyre, he seriously is a comic genius and now we're watching lee evans, he's not as funny as michael mcintyre but he's okay. we're going to whack on the decsent in a minute and scare ourselves to death.. should be good!

literally cannot wait until may

okay first things first.. i'm really sorry for not doing a blog in like two weeks.. been quite busy with college what with coursework deadlines and revision! lots has been going on in my life, but i can't really remember past last weekend so ima start there. it was show night on friday and saturday at work so was so busy and stressful! my friday night school were the best, i was so proud of them! saturday afternoons were the worst, but that's cool cos that's my least favourite class anyway. sunday was wembley!!!! was so good, obviously southampton won so was such a great atmosphere although wembley itself was much smaller than i expected it. the pitch was tiny! anyway here's where the best part of my weekend, before wembley i'd text kenny telling him i was in london because he was as well and then afterwards he text me telling me to come see him.. so i did! it was so amazing finally seeing him and he's coming down to southampton so i literally cannot wait until may. he's gonna be down for a whole four days.. sounds rubbish but it will hopefully the best four days ever!