one week one week one week

so today is wednesday 28th april. if you add 7 days onto that it will be wednesday 5th may and that's the day kenny gets here. i haven't spoken to him in like 3 days so i'm worried he's gonna stand me up haha. i'm sure he won't. this time next week i will be with him.. i hope. one week one week one week!

i wish i was in birmingham..

sat at home with a towel on my head watching the european gymnastics mens finals.. my friend dan has just won the gold medal for pommel.. bless him! he could of got me tickets so i could of been up there. i wish i was in birmingham rather than here.. would of been so cool watching all those gymnasts, they're all so good. i wish i was good at something.. like i'd love to be a gymnast it looks so fun but i am like the least flexible person ever.. i've got my singing and dancing but i'm not exactly amazing at that haaa! anyway got quite a busy couple of weeks coming up, obviously college all this week and jordan's 18th on tuesday night, rehearsals on thursday, work on friday, going to gillingham on saturday, possibly cricket on sunday, hair on monday, nails on tuesday and then kenny on wednesday! so i am being a very busy girl! hopefully it will make me forget about eating because i'm trying to lose a bit of weight for summer so less food put together with the fact rehearsals are back and so is work so i am dancing two nights a week for 3 hours a night will mean i have a relativley nice stomach for summer and i can whack the bikinis out.. i fake tanned for like the first time ever - i've had it done professionally before but this was the first time i have done it myself - on friday night and it's gone a pretty nice colour, might do my legs again later as i am wearing a very short skirt to jordan's on tuesday so need nice brown legs.. also i get to wear my lush new shoes! can't wait!

the future is so scary..

do you know when it's really late at night and you can't sleep and you just think about everything. like what's going on in your life now and the future. i did that the other night and i scared myself. everything now seem's fine, you know.. my family support me, i have a good job, good friends, kenny.. but the future is so scary. exam's soon are making me think about university and i keep thinking what if i don't get in.. what will i do? or what happens if i get in but don't like it? what if i can't get a job? and even if i do like university and i can get a job.. i'm rubbish with money, so what if i get into debt.. or what if i never get married? WOW the future is scary stuff. but then i think.. everyone else seem's to manage it so i should be okay? yeah so anyway i'm trying to focus more on the present right now and i'm only thinking about 2 weeks into the future. yey two weeks. in two weeks time, i will hopefully be snuggling up on the sofa or in bed with a gorgeous northern irish man and looking forward to spending the next 4 days with him. no college, just kenny. and work.. unfortunatley i couldn't get out of that.. but he's planning on taking my dad down the pub. could be interesting. i can't wait for two weeks time and i'm counting down the days. it sounds sad i know but it's the only thing i'm really looking forward to in the future at the moment..

can't wait for tomorrow to be over..

i finished all my college work in two hours.. oh yeah i did! really quite proud of myself. still got that 'back to college tomorrow' feeling though. really dreading the 6am wake-up.. college itself should be okay, but then i have a driving lesson and then the dentist. urgh, can't wait for tomorrow to be over!

seventeen days and counting..

don't you hate it when you're so excited about something and you can just tell the time leading up to it is so slow.. kenny booked his train tickets and is coming down on 5th may at like 7pm.. seventeen days and counting.. i can't wait to see him.. but have to go through twelve days of college, three driving lesson, two weeks of work, one week of rehersals.. etc etc etc.. seventeen days though!!! hmm back to college tomorrow as well.. kind of looking forward to it because it makes time go faster.. but not looking forward to the work and early mornings and revision as my exams are exactly a month away tomorrow.. want to see everyone again though! missed my college girls and boys so much!

he's french.. he's a fucking genius

last night with katie was such a comedic night.. we watched michael mcintyre and omg he was actually hillarious.. there was this one thing about his little boy and they thought he wasn't going to be able to speak and i don't even remember what the joke was but it ended up with him asking his little boy if he could say crousaint - or however you spell it - and michael mcintyre like 'imagine if he just went crousaints je suis lucas merci' and all this french stuff and he was like 'i'd shout to my wife.. he's fucking french, he's french.. he's a fucking genius'.. it doesn't even sound that funny now, but omg we were in stiches for about 10 minutes literally. went to watch saints today, we beat leyton orient 2-1.. but omg we made it hard for ourselves. adam lallana or adam lalanmamambanana as kenny calls his scored a beautiful goal though, not gonna lie. anyway, driving lesson tomorrow, first in three weeks.. uhoh..

yeah okay i'm 17 but i do love the annual easter egg hunt

happy easter everyone! i love easter because i get money aha.. i don't do the whole chocolate eggs thing apart from the easter egg hunt. yeah okay i'm 17 but i do love the annual easter egg hunt with my brother and cousins. katie was round this year too so we had five of us doing the hunt and guess what!? i won. took me 17 years but i did it.. so proud of myself. will came second, tim third and beth fourth leaving katie in last place haha! she never even found all her eggs.. katie only found three eggs out of four.. so somewhere in my grandpa's garden theres a plastic egg filled with chocolate waiting to be found.. grandpa forgot to do a map again you see, so we have no idea where the egg is.. home now and we've just watched michael mcintyre, he seriously is a comic genius and now we're watching lee evans, he's not as funny as michael mcintyre but he's okay. we're going to whack on the decsent in a minute and scare ourselves to death.. should be good!

literally cannot wait until may

okay first things first.. i'm really sorry for not doing a blog in like two weeks.. been quite busy with college what with coursework deadlines and revision! lots has been going on in my life, but i can't really remember past last weekend so ima start there. it was show night on friday and saturday at work so was so busy and stressful! my friday night school were the best, i was so proud of them! saturday afternoons were the worst, but that's cool cos that's my least favourite class anyway. sunday was wembley!!!! was so good, obviously southampton won so was such a great atmosphere although wembley itself was much smaller than i expected it. the pitch was tiny! anyway here's where the best part of my weekend, before wembley i'd text kenny telling him i was in london because he was as well and then afterwards he text me telling me to come see him.. so i did! it was so amazing finally seeing him and he's coming down to southampton so i literally cannot wait until may. he's gonna be down for a whole four days.. sounds rubbish but it will hopefully the best four days ever!

i don't really get why i'm so tired..

i've really hurt my back today, i don't know how but its absolutley killing me.. i've currently got a hot water bottle on my back where it hurts but it's not really helping. i'm really tired as well.. i don't really get why i'm so tired because i slept for almost 8 hours last night which must be some kind of record for me on a college night, oh well! i will have to have an early night again tonight although i have to write my english commentary up again.. urgh!

he had the body of a god

me and reanna went to see sam, mullins, dean, aaron and beth in 'billy elliot' last night.. it was so good! all the lead parts were really good and everyone in the ensemble was equally as good! mine and reanna's favourite scene was the bit where older billy comes on and does a duet dance with younger billy. we're sitting there watching this 14 year old boy split leap and barrell roll across the stage when on comes older billy.. and jeez he was beautiful.. he had the body of a god i swear! bulging biceps, rippling abs.. wow! yeah anyway so when i got home, weirdest thing ever, i have a friend request on facebook and who is it? only mr god-like body himself.. amazing times!

i really do love lazy sundays

don't you love the days when you wake up at midday and lounge around in your pj's until threeish when mum brings you a mcdonalds and then you have an hour long bath and pamper yourself. i do. had one of those today. now i'm just lazing around in bed watching the football. i probably have a load of college work to do, but i'm so relaxed right now there is no way i'm doing it. i really do love lazy sundays. one thing i'm not loving is that i haven't had a single text all day, i mean literally no texts. and it's 10 to 6 in the evening. feel well unloved! i don't think there's been a day since i got my blackberry where i haven't got a text or two. oh well, there's still time to get one today and continue the trend. if i don't get one by 10ish i will probably end up texting someone first which i hate doing. just have to wait and see.

wow i hate headaches..

went to town with gina today, such a funny day, had a lovley catch up and i bought two lush tops and a jumper which i'm in love with.. starting to feel a bit fluey now though, got a runny nose, headache, feel quite hot.. i can hardly look at the screen my head hurts so much, wow i hate headaches. i really feel like an icecream shake. oh that reminds me, i had a shakeaway for the first time in ages today! after eight, was lush! really wishing this headache would go away now?

could just have a four day weekend?

went on a long drive today and it went pretty well! i am now watching the olympic hockey final.. canada are winning 2-0 yey! should really be doing my english work. but college is an absolute dickhead because they're giving us a day off on tuesday! don't get me wrong i'm loving the day off, but wtf.. why a tuesday? could just give me tomorrow off instead/as well so that i could have a three/four day weekend. but no they want me to get up on monday at 6am and then on tuesday just go back to thinking it's a weekend again. talk about head fucks. i could of just had a four day weekend? HATE YOU!

wow my life is very uninteresting

thought i'd better actually blog as i haven't all week, been back at college and it's rubbish, i've only had three days back and i'm so bored of it already. and waking up at six am? i don't know who invented that time but i hate them. i've just finished doing my english language monologue, it's about some middle-aged drunk irishman, it's so bad it's unreal, but hey it's done. oh one thing interesting that has happened is that me, amy and livv have decided we're going to malia in july, yeeey! if we can book happy day's hotel that is.. seriously loving the name of the hotel.. i got so bored tonight that i am now watching gangshow 2007 so I would have been fourteen and i'll tell you something, i look ridiculous. not only am i hugley fat, but my hair is like mouse colour, long and greasy and my boobs do not exist. i am so glad i don't look like that any more. anyway, college tomorrow so better go to bed. wow my life is very uninteresting.

i probably should have slept last night

obviously i had slept most of the day yesterday so i didn't actually feel tired until about 4am. and then i was like, i have to be up at half 6 anyway, so i'll just not bother with sleep. but i ended up falling asleep AT half 6 and waking up at 7.10am.. i spent the whole of the day at work, all nine hours, yawning.. hayley did london fashion week yesterday so she was tired as well. work was actually a good laugh though. i got in a fell asleep and only woke up at 10pm. i probably should have slept last night. and now i'm sitting at home with half a dominoes farmhouse pizza and some potatoe wedges infront of me, and i can't eat anymore. holiday planning with amy, livv and sian tomorrow!

i do love it when you lie to me..

hakdjhafhekjbgtfdfkwsbjgf I HATE YOU!

got a nice little trip to hospital

lol, good night, kinda... party was actually wicked, but me being the clever person i am decided i wanted to walk home from woolston, which at best is probably a 2 and a half hour walk.. so me and jordan, rob, daryl, josh, michael and josh/justin bieber (he looks like justin bieber so much) all left and started walking. and then they decided they wanted to go to mcdonalds and go to the walk through. so we went and got food. and then we walked to the train station and they all got on a train and just left me at the station? so yeah 4.30am and i'm in the middle of southampton, in my pajama bottoms. walked around for about 2 hours before calling my mum and begging her to pick me up. she turned up, took one look at me, and told me she was taking me to hospital. aparently if i'd been out there any longer i would of got pneunomia. hospital treated me for shock and cuts to my hands and legs. so yeah i got a nice little trip to hospital! got in at 11.30am.. overall gooooood times!

oh how the day can change so quick

just been invited to a party! yey! day had been pretty boring up till now, but now it's party time. i have no idea what to wear, hmm problem! it's chay's birthday party but it's at byron's and i'm not going to know anyone except katie, katie and will :L and byron.. i don't even know chay.. wow this is going to be funny. just sorting out the final details with the katie's.. eee i'm excited.

she should get out my bed

katie's round.. we made pancakes, we walked down the shop and bought batter after my previous attempt.. they still tasted pretty rubbish, i don't think i'll be cooking anytime soon. then we got into bed and watched 'my sister's keeper'. katie had never seen it, i've seen it like twelve times. we both cried, like babies, the whole way through. i always start crying at the bit where taylor dies. no matter how many times i watch that film, i will always cry. it reminds me of alex and what she went through. and the chemo bit just makes me think she was right not to have it. anyway, so katie started crying at the end, like where their all eating pizza in the hospital room. and we were both still crying when it ended. and now we're lying in bed, and it's really hot. way to much body heat going on. i think she should get out of my bed.

i make the worst pancakes ever

it's pancake day! i went looking through my cupboards for that pre-made batter i swear my mum bought, and couldn't find it? so had to make batter from scratch, which kind of failed.. the batter ended up really lumpy but i thought 'lumpy batter can't harm anyone' so i made them anyway.. they didn't harm me, just kind of looked weird.. and tasted funny, so yeah the moral of today is don't let emma make the pancakes..

i wish i could ice skate

i love figure skating and it was on the winter olympics tonight, so i thought i'd stay up and watch it, didn't know they meant three o'clock in the morning though
anyway, so now it's on and the british couple are skating, and they're not even that good, but what do you expect they're british. this guy whose doing the commentary, robin cousins, he once attempted to teach me to skate at a friends birthday party. i still can't skate more than three metres without falling over, so shows you how good a teacher he was. so after staying up for two and a half hours to watch the figure skating, i now really can't be bothered. should i stay up? hmm desicions..

ice cream shakes at twenty past midnight

it was about midnight and i thought, i fancy an ice cream shake - i often have these weird urges late at night, the other night i had a bath at one am - so i went down to the freezer and got some ice cream, and put some in a glass.. had to wait for it to melt though didn't i.. so twenty past midnight and it's finally melted enough.. i go to drink it, and it pours all over my face.. i do love my life :)

i hate that i love you

this pretty much sums up my feelings atm:
'i can't stand you, must everything you do, make me wanna smile, can i not like you for a while?
but you won't let me, you upset me boy, and then you kiss my lips, all of a sudden i forget, that i was upset, i can't remember what you did
and i hate it
you know exactly what to do, so that i can't stay mad at you for to long, that's wrong
but i hate it
you know exactly how to touch, so that i don't wanna fuss and fight no more
said i despise that i adore you
and i hate how much i love you boy, i can't stand how much i need you, and i hate how much i love you boy, but i just can't let you go, but i hate that i love you so'

i miss you

i miss dallas, TX
simple as

john mayer + strawberry milkshake = heaven

so, went to bed yesterday night thinking i'd be getting my hair done and having a driving lesson today. neither happened. instead i woke up feeling really ill, so i cancelled both. and when you're feeling ill there is only one thing to do. put the ipod in it's dock and make a playlist which only involves john mayer and switchfoot. i only ventured out of bed once, to make a strawberry milkshake. with ice cream ofc. me and amy spoke about our holiday and i now cannot wait until sunday to get down to booking it with her and livv and sian. i've decided lazy day's are pretty awesome and to top it all off.. glee (L)